Because I Can

I've gotten a couple of texts from Annie tonight, she's just now getting that yep, he's gone and things are different. It's kinda her first rodeo, she hasn't lost anyone close until now. I'm glad for her for that, but it's a whole different world too.
In the South at least it's like a Carnival. Someone dies and there are people, and food, and someone cleans your floors, and takes out your trash, and it's still, just people all the time. And you're gracious and thankful for those people just because it's what you do. And they're there because that's what they do. Then the funeral is over, the tents get packed up, and everyone goes home. You're in a house that used to have another person in it, wondering what the hell went on.
Make a pot of coffee and take a cup out to him because you forgot, want to say something, and they're not there. Look up at the chair he always sits in while you're in the garden, and he's not there.
It takes a minute, and the sad sets in. It takes a long time for that to go away, but eventually you learn, and you deal, and they're still missed, but it's not a heart stopping moment every time.

I hope the healing starts really soon for everyone.

Goodbye to a good man

I loved Annie's dad. Apparently it was reciprocated. Last year Annie told me he worried about sending me  an X-mess present, which was new, but sure as shit, he sent me a card and some money. Same thing this year. Think it's because I spent so much time up there while I was unemployed and we got to know each other a little better. (Ok, I wasn't in my "don't speak to me" shell anymore.) I've always thought a great deal of both of her parents, but him especially because he was quiet, and sometimes others don't get us.

He was laid to rest today, he will be missed greatly by a lot of people. I wish his family peace. And I'll be around since his wife said She, Annie and I are planting the garden this year, so if y'all need some 'maters I can probably hook you up :)

I'm Offensive

Offender, Offendiverodorous? I dunno. I made a crack about Zombie Jesus and ham.........Apparently that makes me persona non grata. Oh Well.
I have religious  friends, and Republican friends, and I'm able to look past that. Apparently they are sometimes not able to look past my I don't give a shit, so they'll cease to be friends.

Sad Day

A Husband, Father, and Friend left today. Annie's father has been sick for awhile. At least he's not suffering anymore because he did a lot of that recently.

I'm sad, but glad, and I hate both feelings right now.