Nothing New to Report

I've done some more painting, yard work, and hanging out. The job that was really a job went poof. Just hanging out and looking for something at the moment. Got cash from my 401k so the Jeep will get some new clothes and the bills will get paid for a bit longer since Annie isn't doing well on the job front either.

Lucy is here for a couple of more days, having lunch with a long lost friend tomorrow, and that's about it. Got some pinto beans in the crock pot and about to put my ass in bed. I'm tired for someone who didn't really do anything today.
Later kids.

So I Walk Into a Bar....

Yeah, not surprising. Nothing about this is actually, just wanted a title.
I ran errands, bought books, and sat at The Dive to read for a couple of hours because I could. It's Stephen White this week, pretty good stuff.
Annie is away and Lucy won't be back till tomorrow so I've had some alone time.
It's not that much different except I have more bed when I finally get there.
I grocery shopped today, was gonna grill hotdogs and decided that was too much trouble for just me so I had a hot pocket. The pizza ones aren't bad.
Applied for a job a friend accidentally told me about on facebook and pondered the meaning of life while watching Las Vegas....ok, not so much.
I got up early and did some stuff, then went back to bed because I could. I'm a slug.
Going to Tn. tomorrow to help Annie do some painting, and planning my life from there.
I have seriously been thinking about shit lately, and maybe it is time for me to make a real change and get the hell outta here.
The only interviews I've had are for the same job, just different companies vying for the contract, and that doesn't seem to be going too well for any of us.

The reasons I was staying here aren't really valid reasons anymore, it just took me a long time to figure that out. So....We shall see what happens.

Lucy is going home

That's temporary, but still not a good idea from here. I'm not happy about it, but there it is.
I have nothing else to say.

So It is

I have a job, sorta. Cotingent upon my passing a background, drug, and security clearance check. Not a problem. Their side is, contingent on award. Damn N@S@.
Does my ego good to know I'm wanted, but doesn't do shit for my wallet.
Still looking for a non-guvment job, but minimum wage is the same as sitting on my ass drawing pennies. I see the shine now.
I still have nightmares about the old job, and that just really pisses me off.

I think I should sleep now.

Gray

I've been bitching at Lucy, I had 2 visible gray hairs on the top of my head. I was ok with that, they were quirky, added character, but hid most of the time. Now I have about a dozen and I'm blaming every one of them on her.
I need to go to bed, but I'm not sleepy, and I need to rest, but I've been looking for a job again and it's scary. I think I'll take my new gray and become a Wal-Hell greeter if they'll have me; it's that bad.
Yeah, sleep would be a good thing about now. Later kids.

Yeah, I'm up too late

Got up early, washed windows, and headed out to Armpit. I did stuff at Mom's while she and Lucy hung out, and really? I walked out on the porch and for real, Mom is telling Lucy the optimal way to kill yourself. I finished my cigarette and went back in the house before I learned something.
We went out and watched Spawn play soccer, he's pretty good. His team is undefeated so far even tho they scored one for the other team tonight. Kindergarten, still young, but damn he's growing.
Lucy unwrapped his new sword, he handed it to me so we could fight and she got mad that SHE opened it and I was was the one that got to play with it. I told her it's because it's a guy thing LOL. He's got that part down.
I think it might be time to get some sleep. Later kids.

Gnomes and Stuff

Moved Gnome furniture today, it made her happy.
Went to an Open House yesterday and interviewed for the same damn job I interviewed for a couple of months ago. NASA is apparently shopping contractors. At least it was an ego boost, and I'm still qualified for it if it ever becomes available........
Then off to The Asshole's house for the ballgame that I really gave a shit about, but there was food and stuff. I made Mr. Asshole's dip since he was out golfing all day, it was cool. Darts, Wii bowling, and hopes of hashbrowns that were dashed so I slept, then took my hangover to The Gnome's house. At least I got to see the dog. He still loves me.
Off to sleep some more now because I can. Or maybe play on facebook until an ungodly hour of the morning. Hmmmm, decisions, decisions.

Jobs......

Not so many of them these days. I think I fumble fingered my way out of one today too. Dammit. Fucking phone.
I'm also having my first period in 5 months and Wolverine Hair. I'm not a happy camper obviously.

Going to update my facebook with that wolverine pic and put my ass in bed.
Later kids.

Things Happen for a Reason

That's my Mom's take on life anyway. I'm trying to use that philosophy for I've been available for things I wouldn't otherwise have been available for.
Besides Lucy, it looks like I may be having a cat. I swore I would never have another, but there it is...

It's Me, it's Me, It's Ernest T

I forgot.
I did tell a friend that Lucy had a breakdown. That friend can actually be trusted. I didn't tell her all of it, but I think she gets it. I need an excuse for Lucy being here all the time lately, and she'll help me fashion one. She's in sales...

I'm all over some jobs, but they ain't all over me so....

Cashed in the 401k today since it wasn't that much anyway. It'll pay the bills for a couple of months while we both try to find someone who thinks we're special. Besides our Mom's I mean.

My wit is apparently sleeping with my sense of humor tonight because I can't seem to find either. We'll try that later.
NIGHT kids.

Unemployment has Gotten Really Old

I need a little structure. My schedule is completely screwed, as you can tell since I'm writing this at 2 a.m. I either sleep too much or not enough, but I'm definitely drinking too much. I'm gaining weight between that and actually eating these days since I cook more, and with Lucy here, there is definitely more cooking going on. She enjoys doing that.
If I'm not helping the other gnome move furniture all day tomorrow there will be more job shopping, and giving up on the specialty shit. I'm ready to take anything that's a job because this beach bum attitude is not good for me. Especially since there's no beach in sight and I don't have any Hawaiian shirts. Must go to bed since I may actually be moving gnome furniture tomorrow. Night kids.

So I Went Out Back To Smoke...

Lucy was in the front, so I went out on the deck to smoke. I haven't been out there much lately. Tonight wasn't pretty. I know it's been 2 months but I miss Handsome so much when I go out there. I'll learn, but not yet.

Lucy is....I'm not sure yet. She's sleeping and eating better, but still not 100%. I'm still day to day with that, hoping she'll feel better soon because I don't know what to do other than what I'm doing right now. She's safe, sheltered, and loved, and I'm trying to talk to her about stopping some of the worry about things she can't fix. I'm not the best person for this job, but I'm trying.
And on that note, I think I'll go do something mindless for a bit, smoke outside with my kitties, and put my ass in bed. Night kids.

So It Wasn't A Jailbreak

It just turned into a kidnapping. Lucy actually thought I was taking her to her house. Her sister and I decided that wasn't a good idea, so she's hanging out at Casa Wolf for awhile.
She doesn't remember any of last week, and very little of the first day at her new digs, which may be a blessing. She's getting less blurry tonight, and didn't really mind being kidnapped so I'm good so far. I'm off to bed because it was a long drive to collect her ass. Although it was fun when I turned off the interstate and she thought I was making good on that threat to take her down a Tn backroad and beat her ass lol.
Off to bed. Later.

Gonna Ramnble SO....

Today is sister's birthday. She would have been 43. Hell, she was 43 mentally when she died so I probably didn't miss much except all those years and all those kids she would have had. I still miss her though.
Anyway, just another day in the life. Lucy said she's getting outta lockup tomorrow, her sis knows nothing about this, so I may be being played. Waiting for morning to find out, because if I'm driving all that way to bust her out? I'll kill her before we get very far.

I'm apparently not well, and not finding a job is working on me to the point where I just really, really don't care anymore. I stay up all night and sleep most of the day when I can. I got up at lunch today after crashing around 5am to help Annie do stupid shit that I normally wouldn't do.

I think I need to give up and get some sleep now just because I can. Oh shit, my mother called earlier. I need to check in. That should be fun.
Later kids.

Sunday Afternoon with Lucy

Saw her today. She's good, and not, and her sister is crazy too so I'm just sitting here going WTF. I should clarify the sister. She's into holistic stuff and not using real doctors and she thinks her friends can heal Lucy and I'm all "bullshit" but keeping my mouth shut so... It was that kinda day.
Lucy was more animated and healthy looking than I've seen her in a long time, but also scheming a way to get out of there, and still more just sitting here going WTF.
And I forget she'll read this whenever she gets out, but she'll agree with what I've said so far so ok.
I told her to call my mom, I didn't know mom was gonna rip her, but oh well. She deserved it anyway.

I need to put ass in bed because I've got to get back on some kind of regular schedule. In case a job calls and all ya know? Not that it's looking likely, but one can hope.
Later.