Discord

I haven't heard a peep, but I'm pretty sure there was a major fight at The Asshole's house Sunday night. Annie seemed a bit put out she wasn't invited over there yesterday, I don't ask, so I was good with it. We went over for dinner tonight and  things were a bit tense to me. Annie doesn't notice anything, and I'm not saying anything to her because she's her. She'd ask, and I don't think things are good enough to talk about with us yet. I said thanks for dinner after we cleaned up the kitchen, and got the hell outta there because it seemed like a good idea.
If , and probably, there was a fight, I got brought into it because I took her to a bar while he was golfing. Her idea, but I was still complicit in her drunkenness, even tho she was trashed when I picked her up. And he was completely hammered when he got home, and I said "Hi' and took off because I knew there was a thunderhead looming. I feel bad because I do love them both. But yeah, the winds, they are a changing.

I think I'll be doing the home thing for a few days because I need to anyway. Also got a message earlier that something might be wrong with Dad, but of course he never tells me anything so I have to check in with him. And Mom, she had a Dr. visit today about her boobs, and I think I need to go to bed and hug my pussy since he's sleeping with me again. Maybe the world will right itself tomorrow.

Sun was Shining

I put a bunch of music on a usb disk and went for a drive. It was awesome. I love my car, it turns like the Jeep, and it zooms. 9 speakers were awesome while I was zooming around. Sun was shining, I was singing, it was a good day.

I haven't felt this good in a long time. I need to do this more often.

Poetic Justice

I've been actually friending some people from my old High School about a reunion I have no intention of going to, but it's been kinda fun to see what they're up to. I left said school when I was a Sophomore because of bullshit about me being gay. Ok, I ran away from home to be with my one true love. I was an idiot. On the other hand, if I hadn't gotten out, I might have tried to conform and be even more miserable than I am now lol.

That was the intro to the real story. I was on probation at that point in  my life because my mother couldn't/wouldn't get it, so shit was done and there I was. My probation officer was happily planning her wedding to the Macho Cop during this time. Bride magazines were all over her office when I went to see her.

I did my time, ran away for the last time for that love we won't speak of again and a few years later heard that probation officer came home one day to find Macho Cop Husband in bed with a Macho Cop he'd been working with. It was more funny to me because the night of my arrest that led to the bullshit, he was standing in the corner while she went through my shit, and I knew he wasn't really that Macho.

I was 16 when this happened so it did make my 19 yr old self laugh because she was a seriously homophobic bitch, I just didn't know the word for it back then.

Anyways, that's my story and I'm sticking to it, and putting my ass in the bed soon. I just needed to get that outta my system.

So it's not a Camaro

I wanted a Camaro, I drove one, liked it, but it was like the QE2 so I got over it.
I got small, and comfy, and OMG I love it. I zip, zoom and I'm gonna get great gas mileage when I get over blowing people off the road in it.

Ain't Gonna Believe This

Dad bought me a car. I can't tell facehell about that yet  because of Mom, but WOOHOO! I'll have a new car hopefully Monday. They had to go find my color, and manual tranny, and yeah I got some bells and whistles because I could. I can't stand myself right now. Hopefully I can afford to get the Jeep's engine rebuilt now since I have something to drive and I'll be in car heaven :)

Taxes

I did mine, sort of, tonight. The state wants half an arm. I don't get it. If I take any more money out of my check I won't be able to feed the cat. All my plans for that whopping 300 I'm getting back from federal just went out the window. Bastids. Time to sleep since I have to go back to the shitty job tomorrow.

I bitch, it sucks to be me, but I know it could be worse. At least I have a shitty job, because I was about ready to slit my wrists when I didn't have one. At least then I got a refund dammit.

LOL, so it goes.........now I really will go to bed.

I know Better

I went to The Assholes for lunch, it turned into dinner. I knew better, but still did it. I don't like them too much because they're always drunk. Me being there turns into me being drunk.
Babysis called, needed something, then threw the dog at me. Yes, the dog has lost a lot of her quality of life.
I love that dog, and it pained me to tell her yes, she should do it. I'm crying and playing Doom because it's too early for me to go to sleep. I think I'll go shoot a few more things and go to sleep anyway.

Music

I'm listening to Melissa Etheridge for some reason tonight. I used to belong to her fan club, followed her everywhere, I got over her at some point apparently. Guess I need to take that Brave and Crazy tag off my Jeep too, HA.
Annie came through and asked me if Melissa was touring, cuz we saw her a hundred times back in the day. I kinda blinked and told her "Dunno, I haven't kept up with her in a while."

One of those things that used to mean a lot to me, and I don't go there much anymore. I was all about music, listened to it constantly, found new artists I liked. I guess I got old. I don't do it anymore. The last person other than Adele that I've paid any attention to is Lissie, and she sounds a lot like a young Melissa Etheridge so that may be why.

Up and Down

I spent yesterday with a bunch of 7 yr olds because my mother decided Spawn should have a Xmess party. It wasn't horrible, the kids had a good time. Spawn and I played and had a good time last night and this morning, so it was a success. Babysis and I caught up a bit last night after Spawn finally settled, all in all,  a good weekend.
Went to see Dad after I left there today because it's been way too long and I'd gotten a couple of messages from him saying it's been way too long. We're just kinda hanging out watching bad westerns on tv when he tells me to start looking for a new vehicle, that's my Xmess present. I think I looked like a goldfish for a bit, then got over it. That was the Up.

I came home. It was downhill from there.

Not Giving A Shit

A comment earlier made me think. Apparently I haven't done much of that lately. Nope, I don't give shit about much lately. I work, I try to get thru my Monday to Friday, and then I'm done. I'm too old for this shit.
Or too young for this shit. I used to be passionate about music, I don't care anymore.
I used to be a lot of things I'm not anymore. Hellmart has sucked the life out of me.
I need to find my passion again.
After some sleep, lots of it. Some fool is having a Halloween party at noon because she has nothing better to do, and I have the perfect costume after I did think about it. I may pass on the whole mess. We'll see after some sleep. My weekends haven't been mine lately and I'm feeling the need for one where I can do what I want instead of what everyone else wants. We'll see how that goes.

Football!

Watched Spawn play today, he's good, they won. Annie went with, which was a bit surprising, but anyway. We went to the Assholes after, and everyone was there. It was loud, and mostly uncouth, and I sat in the corner playing on my phone most of the time because I'm really not a joiner, or participator with the person that never shuts up.
We did welcome a new girl to the group, she seems cool. I'm home and been fighting bed for an hour now, I think I'll give in.

Finally got someone on the phone

Mom is ok, according to the scan, so Yay! Talking to her makes me wonder, and like my idea of not going to the Dr.

So Here I Am Again

I'm worried. Mom had a freak out at her PET scan today, which freaked me out when I heard about it, and Babysis is convinced she has brain cancer, and yeah. I'm worried. I'm not home much anymore, but Mom tells me her balance is off and stuff, when I see her she's pretty much ok. Alright, not so much last week when we went to the pre ballgame stuff, she was leaning on Stepdad quite a bit. Another reason I'm worried. Nurse telling her to make sure someone goes with her to Oncologist Thursday to get the results of today's scan could be because she had a freak-out there and nurse is concerned about her, she's a very nice woman. Or it could be something. Babysis thinks it's something, I'm hoping not, but I'm still worried. It's like that. The worm keeps eating itself and I think I need to go to bed because I have to show up at work tomorrow whether I do anything or not.

I know, but I worry anyway, so light a candle Jackiesue. Love you too just in case I haven't told you lately.

Dammit, it's Sunday again.

Already dreading tomorrow. I think I'm gonna have to bow out of polite society for awhile because I just really hate everything right now.
Today the neighbors suddenly semi-cleaned out their dog pen and put a dog in it. These are the same people responsible for all the street cats I fed that ended up being picked up by the pound. Except for Buttplug. He's the only good thing that came out of that mess.
I did go home yesterday and see DeNephew escort his little friend across the football field, and that was cool. He's becoming such a little man. I threw football with him for a bit, bad idea, I hurt all over again so I guess I need to get some ice and put my ass in bed.

So Tired of the Bullshit

The girls are still not getting along, and my dumb ass said something to someone else yesterday, because he asked. Pretty much he told me to keep an eye on them, and things in general,  and I'm yeah ok.  I'm suddenly the Den Mother.
The only good part of that conversation was I'm doing a good job and he trusts me if I tell him something. He's Asset Protection so he obviously knows I'm not a thief now. DUH.

I said a couple of weeks ago I needed to quit hanging out with the people I was hanging out with, that's working well for reasons unknown to me. Annie said I scared Mrs. Asshole when I was so pissed off about work, but I don't think that's all of it. Annie is on my shit list too and we haven't talked too much lately so I think Mrs. Asshole may be scared of talking to me because she knows things I don't, that don't matter, but she doesn't know that. So yeah, Everything is fucking stupid right now, and I'm tired and should be in bed instead of doing this.

Happy Anniversary!

I was hired to Hell Mart 1 year ago today. OMG, I'm an idiot. Newest news on the kids, is I went off on them this morning, so they got pissed at me, but it didn't help anything in the long run, so fuck them.
I don't need friends, I just need someone to do their fucking job. This just means I'll do mine, they can do theirs, and ooops sorry, I can't help you anymore.

I'm off for the weekend, they have to deal with each other tomorrow.

Annie is my other WTF. I finally asked her tonight if she still had a job to go to since she's been so fucking lackadaisical about getting there, every fucking day this week after she was off Monday.

Sorry, just not having a good day/night/week/month right now.

I have a game, I should be playing that, but I'm doing this because Cat didn't know what to do with me when I was over there shooting shit. He's good with me sitting here.
I'm way too fucking nice.

I'm an Asshole

I called into work yesterday, for today, because I had a death in the family. That I did, but I didn't go to the funeral even tho I should have so I'm not happy with myself.
I hate liars, and I feel like one and it sucks.
Got a text from someone who was supposed to be there, that she wasn't, so FUCK some more.
I don't think she'll feel like shit, but I do. I did text the person who was left alone, and she forgave me, but still. Dammit.

Another of Those

Got a text from Dad telling me my uncle passed away, Dad is off on a trip, heading home. I was chicken shit and texted the cousin about my aunt in the hospital since I haven't heard anything from there lately, got a call back and she's doing better, but not well. She told me about Uncle too.
Thinking about calling Mom about the Uncle....she calls me to make sure I heard because Babysis heard it when she was in town. Gotta love small towns.

I think I'm gonna go play some games and go to bed, I was up way to early for a day off.

War Has Been Declared and I'm the Neutral Country

Apparently The Girls (Squeaky Wheel and New Kid) are bound and determined to not get along. Squeaky seems to be the main problem here, but I don't care since I have to deal with both of them and I'm not gonna put up with this shit for long. My biggest problem is Squeaky likes to run to management over every little thing, where I would just talk it out with the person I'm not happy with, but she's doing it the Hell Mart way and I've not been assimilated yet.
If things haven't settled by Monday, since they have to work together without me tomorrow, I'll fix things or get fired because I'm not dealing with their shit on top of hating my job. Oh wait, I might not hate my job so much if they would get their shit together so....

I need to sleep. I'm helping Mrs. Asshole cook tomorrow, meaning I'm cutting and chopping while she cooks which means I'll be seriously inebriated way early. Yes, driver is lined up so I can do that, and things will be ready for party Sunday at The Newlywed's house, where I also have a driver lined up. I'm on top of things like that. I can schedule my weekends, just not anything else lately.

Now off to sleep just because I can, and if Cat doesn't wake me up at the crack of dawn, it might be daylight when I wake up. Wheeeeeee!

Weird Ass Wednesday

I'm not sure where to start... There was usual stupidity, and then shit happened, and happened, and happened. I'm still trying to find out about the co-worker's husband who had heart problems Sunday and she hasn't been back to work yet. Nobody has talked to her because she's not answering her phone.
There was a massive OMG going on this morning which turned out to be a manager having seizures and being taken to the hospital, she was unconcious when they put her in the ambulance. Last I heard was she was stable and they were running tests, apparently they don't have a clue.
After all that co-worker that has been there with me from the start, the other half of my "We've gotta get some help because it's killing just 2 of us", informed me she had an interview about transferring to another place today and she's thinking about it. I don't blame her, hell I'm looking for a real job, and/or a transfer to somewhere closer to home if I can't find something else because the cost of gas and mileage on the Jeep are wearing on me and him.
Got a text about dinner with the Assholes, declined and went to The Dive. The new cook (new to me, old to the establishment) bought me a couple of books at the library sale the other day which just kinda blew me away. That niceness pretty much made up for a lot of the not nice I've seen lately. While there, got another text from Mrs. Asshole about a mishap with husband, truck, and light pole at their house and I should come over just because. Nothing was hurt except light pole and possibly wallet so that wasn't a major emergency, and I went. Had decent dinner, then got the hell outta there to come home because I really felt the need for some solitary confinement for a bit.
Annie is out of town so it's just me and the critters for a few days and I think I'll spend the rest of my week after work here instead of anywhere else just because.
Cat is still mad at me about a multitude of things, starting with being gone for most of a few weeks so I'm trying to make up, and I'm also just fucking tired. I think it'll be bedtime real soon.
So much for Humpday WOOHOO! I need to call and check on the Aunt also because I've apparently been dropped out of that loop, so yeah, I think it's time for bed. Night kids.